A couple of years ago, around this time I was rounding up my degree exams in school and I could never recall a time where I was so confused than that time. I was going into the world and I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. I had a major in Economics and a minor in Geography but I hated those courses. There was so much I didn’t know at the time but I was so certain about one thing, I won’t do anything that I wasn’t passionate about. Life is too short to go through it wondering and hoping that life would happen for me and in truth I needed a pause to help me think and strategize and at that point, my first major iceberg hit my ship. I didn’t graduate. I didn’t understand it then. “what is God trying to do” I would often ask myself. My cousins jumped on their high horses and made me feel like a failure. I didn’t know what else to do. I sank into depression. I cried throughout the night, ate throughout the day. I was gaining weight and losing my sense of bearing, my curtains were always closed because I was suddenly afraid of the light rays. In that time, I began to remember the words of my youth pastor from university days. I picked up my bible after many months and I prayed for God to help me through this time. I was weak and I needed a strength bigger than I to lift me out of my misery.
Soon after that, God did what he knows how to do best, Surprise me. I saw an ad on Instagram for a wedding writer/ social media manager for a wedding planning company based in the UK. I didn’t even think I would get a reply but I did o. Prior to that, I applied to nineteen other wedding planning companies in Nigeria for a shadow internship, I only got two replies, one auto-reply and one company who was nice enough to send me a refusal letter. My London connect was the last and it clicked. It was an unpaid internship but I didn’t mind. I was writing again and that was enough for me. My Boss is the best in the world. That woman pushes me. Oh my God. She will tell me, Oby when you came to me, you told me you wanted to be a wedding planner, what are you waiting for? She inspired me to start this blog in early 2019 and after my internship finished I was granted a permanent position.
Whenever I wake up in the morning these days, I check my spirit, my heart and body. My tension headaches are gone, my heart is no longer heavy, I have the love of my savior and I am reminded of how much I mean to him. He said I will be with you till the end of age after promising that nothing can separate me from his love. I just needed to realize that and walk in God’s truth. You might be in a rot now, you might be so confused that going forward might be too heavy a step for you to carry, I want you to trust God. When the battles get tougher, that is when God shows up. Trust in His love towards you and lean on him. Your troubles come with lessons. Pay attention to them and trust that God will come through for you. The Lilies are outside under the rain, sunshine, thunderstorms and animals that might eat them up, yet they blossom and shine like they’ve got no care in the world. Why? Because their maker shows up for them. They are lilies, what about you created in the express image of God. Trust Him and believe. God is not Dead. He lives.
Until next time, I remain your favorite wedding planner,
Oby.
